I want to lock myself away with a big table, spread out my computers and files and papers and write my ass off. When I am away from my computer, my mind spins and whirls with words to write and things to say. It’s easier to write than to speak at this point. My friends ask how I am, and before I answer, I ask if they have read my blog. It makes it so much easier. We have a starting place versus having to catch up on so many places and spaces. I appreciate that it could be annoying but these are the friends who I know will be there thick and thin so they are willing to take the 10 minutes and read my words. Otherwise, the energy expenditure feels immense. I beg: please just read it, and then ask me, ok? Mostly, they say ok. My world has gotten smaller at the same time my words are reaching more people. I haven’t spent “social” time with more than a handful of people. It’s normal in times like this to retreat. In retreating, I am not isolating. I am re-grouping, re-gathering, re-forming. And, it doesn’t mean I don’t love you. I am conserving my energy. It is a primal need to do so.
01 July, 2012 / 3 Comments